Nice to see you!

Three major events occurred for me last year (2010), all in the space of about 2 weeks. I turned 50. The following day I got married. Two weeks later, my oldest daughter became pregnant with her first child and my first grandchild.

Most middle-aged people will tell you that in their minds, they still feel 20 something. It's the same for me.

Wasn't it only yesterday that I was planning a night out with guys from the surf club? That gorgeous new perm. Flaired, cuffed denims and the red t-shirt with the off-the-shoulder frill. Corked platform wedgies. **sigh**

Suddenly I'm looking in the mirror and wondering how 30 years can flash by so damned quickly!

So here I am in cyberspace, sharing my genuine shock and horror with anyone who'll listen and maybe I'll even meet some other over 50s who find themselves in the same predicament!

Welcome to my dilemna!!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

A Big Day Out

No ... not THAT 'Big Day Out'!  Just 'A' big day out for Adoring Husband and I.

It started with a very pleasant bus ride into town (Rocket Rod was not driving today) and I thanked the driver for providing me with my first enjoyable bus trip into The Bay for weeks.  He was very pleased and thanked me for saying so.

I spent an hour with Vegan Chickie, the Bare-chested Chef and Chicklet.

Chicklet played with her stackable boxes, her golliwogs, read a book, practised some words, giggled a bit, talked a bit, crawled a little, did some walking until she was all tuckered out and had to have a nap.

After her nap, I had about 20 more fun minutes with her, before Adoring Husband arrived to pick me up and we headed off to Maryborough for a photo shoot.

Our plan was to get a good shot for our flickr challenge this month.  I failed to do that.  I got some OK shots for my other challenges, but nothing that I would happy to submit for the flickr challenge.

I don't think Adoring Husband was happy with his shots either, because the last thing I heard him say was "we still have six days don't we?".  I assume from those words, that he wants to try something different.

So here are my Maryborough shots so far.



Railway to nowhere
The view from Muddy Waters Cafe/Restaurant where we had lunch.
There may be others later.

We arrived home quite late, around 4pm.

The football started at 4.30pm and it was Super Saturday, so we had 3 footy matches to watch.  Adoring Husband doesn't know it yet, because he went to bed early, but his team 'Cronulla Sharks' won their match 20-14.  He'll be very happy about that.

The Multi-cultural Festival is on in The Bay tomorrow, so we will probably duck in for a look.  I need photos of 'a colourful market stall' and 'a parade', so hopefully I can get them tomorrow.

Definitely time for bed now - I almost needed a nana nap after we got home this afternoon.  I am feeling decidedly weary tonight after our big day out!

Nite all

Friday, March 23, 2012

Happy Birthday Vegan Chickie

Even though I'm going to visit Chicklet and Vegan Chickie tomorrow, I wanted to see her for her birthday today ... as I told her, this may be the last birthday I get to spend with her for  a while, because they plan on moving as soon as they can afford it!

So we drove into The Bay and went to the Cheesecake Shop to get a Black Forest Cake, because that is one of Vegan Chickie's favourites and then we met for coffee at one of the restaurants downstairs from their home.

It was a short visit, only an hour, but it was important, for me, to spend some time with Vegan Chickie on her special day.

I even got to cuddle Chicklet for a little while, until she decided to go off and explore the area, with the Bare-chested Chef hot on her heels.

Happy Birthday Mumma
Look at my amazing eyes!
Happy Birthday Vegan Chickie!!
After the visit, we drove to the Butcher where Adoring Husband had won a voucher, so that we could spend it before it expired and then came home.

It was raining ... again.

Got an early start tomorrow, so ... Happy Birthday Vegan Chickie ... Olive Juice xx

Nite all.

Life Events

It feels very strange to talk about certain life experiences in here... and then receive kind comments from people who care.  It kind of jolts me and triggers a mini grieving process.

I was taught to be tough.  Don't cry, or 'I'll give you something to cry about'.  Talking about such things is 'attention seeking' and I should stop being a sook, shut up and just 'get on with it'.

As I get older, I look back on my life and the events that shaped me, and more and more, I wonder how I survived to this point.

There are so many traumatic events in my childhood that were 'shoved under the carpet', so many times that my life was dramatically tampered with, and looking back, I don't remember ever having any control over a single life decision.  

Today, I started a time line from my first memory as a three year old, to help pinpoint all of these events and how they may have affected me.

One day, I may share it in here, but for now I need to process it myself.

I know that there are people out there whose childhoods were a lot worse than mine, but today, I felt sad for me and all that I had to contend with as a child.

To the people who read this blog and who care enough to either comment or email, to lend me your support whenever I open up about something new in here, I thank you.

I cry every time because you say the nicest things :D

ANYWAY!!!  Enough melancholy!!  Let's get this show on the road!

Sadly, it rained today, so no riding and no photography for me.  I have updates on the challenges and an old photo that I played with and want to share.

March photo a day challenge ...

21. Delicious (my favourite salad)
22. Kitchen Sink 
104 challenge ...

A Flower Garden - Photo 72 of 104
Me mucking around with an old photo.

An ocean snail and a garden snail.
It's pouring rain again now, and even though I made arrangements to play golf with Woman of Many Talents tomorrow, I believe that after tonight's rain, the course will be too wet to play on.  I think I will text her tonight and cancel.

I just looked at the Bureau of Meteorology website and the radar shows a very big rain event over the top of us right now with heavier than usual rainfall.  The road to golf will probably flood.

My big road trip is only 3 weeks away now.  I think I'd best start making a 'to do' list.  So much to do, so little time!

It will be another life event ... I'm planning on it being a good one!

Nite all.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Allow me to expose myself

My little brother writes a blog.  He is still doing it tough after losing his soul mate in October last year, to a brain tumour.  He writes very honestly and from the heart.

He began his new blog with the title 'Allow me to expose myself' and he gave lots of interesting facts about himself, which also included some sad and scary stuff from his past.  I knew most of it, but I thought it was an interesting beginning to his life journal.

So I thought about 'exposing' myself here.  I've thought about it a lot.

I can't expose myself as honestly as my brother does.

Taking into consideration the people who I know read this blog regularly, there is stuff that I couldn't or wouldn't share with them.  Not because I don't trust them with the information, but because some of it would be upsetting for them (and I don't just mean you Grannymus), and then I would be worried about how they were feeling.  I don't want the worry.

So I can share 'some' stuff ... but not 'all' of the stuff.

  • I am short.  155cm or 5' 2" in the old scale.
  • I was sexually abused as a child.  The first time, I was aged 8.
  • I went to 17 different schools while travelling around Australia in a caravan with my parents.
  • I was a competitive swimmer and was fast enough to enter the Australian Championships, but my interest in boys took precedence.
  • I have struggled with fluctuating weight all of my life.
  • I was the oldest child in my family.
  • I have no tattoos.
  • I have never had a driver's licence (I had my 'L's at age 27 but it expired)
  • I have been married twice, with a 12 year relationship in between.
  • I have given birth to four children, had two miscarriages and one termination.  
  • My first baby died of SIDS at 16 wks of age.
  • I love photography.
  • I like frogs (a lot).
  • I'm a good listener.
  • I worked for the CES and Centrelink combined for 16 years (and loved it).
  • Even though I wasn't diagnosed until I was 45 yrs of age, I believe that I have suffered from depression my whole life.
  • I don't trust Doctors.
  • By the age of 45, I had lost both of my parents.
  • Apart from the odd marijuana joint (maybe 6 in my life),  I have never used recreational drugs (unless you count tobacco or alcohol).
  • I'm a lounge lizard sports junkie.
  • I met my Adoring Husband in a free 'over 40s' internet chat room.
  • I hate camping.
  • I hate talking on the phone.
  • I hate celery.
  • I hate housework.
  • I love being a grandmother.
  • I love Spring.
  • I love rivers and oceans and clouds and trees and nature's happy energy.
  • I love my life.
So there's some 'stuff'.  Stuff you may or may not have known about me.  Some heavy stuff, but mostly light stuff.

I have been quite distracted tonight and am thinking that I probably should have left this particular post for another day when I could focus properly on it, however, what's done is done now.

So perhaps it's been more of a sneak peek than actually exposing myself.

Maybe another time.

Nite all.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Challenge Photo Updates

March photo a day challenge.

16. Sunglasses
17. Green
18. Corner of your home.
19. Funny
20. Before and After
104 Challenge.

A Snail - Photo 70 of 104
A Landscape - Photo 71 of 104
Today's effort with the new wide angle lens.

Toogoom Tyre at low tide.
I enjoyed morning tea with the girls today and got to meet Mrs Bucket's BFF.  I wasn't sure she actually existed because she always pulled out of planned visits at the last minute, so I teased Mrs Bucket that she had an 'imaginary' friend.

Today, it was proved that she was real, and I liked her a lot!

Adoring Husband and I changed our minds about the movie today and drove into town for lunch and to do some shopping for the garden and for some 'gluten free' food for me.

I am 99.9% certain that I am either gluten intolerant or Coeliac.  I don't visit doctors because I don't trust them, so I am trying a gluten free diet for 6 months to see if it makes a difference to my health.

The good thing about gluten intolerance and Coeliac disease, is that diet will fix both and medication is not required.

So, we will see.  If it doesn't make a difference, then I will re-think my options.

So that's my update for today.  So many challenges and so many photos to take!

Life is good :oD

Nite all.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Beauty is in the eye of the Beholder

I was feeling a bit out of sorts this morning.  Not unwell.  More like 'out of sync' with my world.  Almost like I'd lost a connection.

So my time at the Seat of Knowledge didn't feel quite as relaxed as it should and I was itching to leave there much earlier than usual.

As I climbed onto my trike, I didn't feel compelled to head in any particular direction and as I attempted to make a decision, all I wanted to do was go home.

This is very unusual, as you well know.

The highlight of my every day is the morning ride around town searching for photographic opportunities.

But not today.

I was reminded by one of my boys that his wife was still waiting for me to photograph her orchids which were now in full flower.

I had arranged twice in the last week to do it and then forgot to go, so this was my last chance before the flowers began to die, and that would leave my friend feeling disappointed.

She wants a copy of the photograph to give her mother for Mother's Day.

So I did some quick grocery shopping, dropped them off at home and then rode on to visit some orchids.



They are quite spectacular and a beautiful colour.

On the way home, I was riding along the footpath, and almost squished a snail.  As I swerved to miss it, I remembered that I had 'snail' on my 104 list, so I turned around and took my camera out.

While I was crawling around on the footpath trying to get a good angle on the snail, it occurred to me that I could pick the damn thing up, take it home and place it in any position that I wanted for a photograph (doh!).

So I picked myself, and the snail, up off the ground and we made our way home, where I forced him to be my model for about 30 minutes.  This was the result.

Snail - Photo 70 of 104


I've never found snails to be attractive creatures, but today, I saw snails in a whole new light.  They really have some lovely detail and textures and are very interesting to watch move around.  I like how the photos turned out.

I guess beauty is in the eye of the beholder.  Some may find the orchids boring and the snail beautiful ... who knows?!

That was the extent of my photography for the day.

I hope that I find the motivation and enthusiasm to do more tomorrow.

Adoring Husband and I are going to the movies tomorrow, so maybe we can find something to photograph in town.

This months challenge for our photography group is 'wide angle'.  Perhaps we can work on that.

Enough for now.

Nite all. 

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Lazy Rainy Sunday

What do you do on a lazy rainy Sunday?  Absolutely nothing!

My bedtime wish for a rainy Sunday morning came true and I got to sleep in til 8am.

Upon inspection this morning, Adoring Husband reported that we had 70 ml of rain in the twenty four hour period from 9am yesterday.  It has rained intermittently all day, so it will be interesting to read the rain gauge tomorrow.

Apparently The Bay had it's highest rainfall in a 24 hr period in 30 yrs!  What a rainy year it has been!

Another afternoon of football - I believe that after the third round, I should give footy tipping away.

I created a footy tipping competition on the Wide World of Sports site and invited seven other people to join me.  I am on the bottom of the ladder.  So sad.

I was once so good that I won my work tipping competition three years in a row!

I've lost my footy tipping mojo.

My lazy day was also filled with some more shots of Chicklet that I found from yesterday.  I forgot about the teddy bear shots that I set aside, until Vegan Chickie reminded me.




This is her favourite teddy bear and she looks so cute when she holds him up and makes him dance.

She is at that age where she learns so fast and every week I notice big changes in her.

Anyway, my wish for tomorrow is that the rain clears and I am able to get out on my trike for a little while ... I also need to get some washing done, so a little sunshine for a couple of hours would also be nice.

I'm happy to say that I am on track to be in bed well before 1.30am.

Nite all.

It's All About Timing

It was pouring with rain when I had to walk to the bus stop this morning.

I had an umbrella packed in my bag, but so that I wouldn't have to carry a wet umbrella on the bus, Adoring Husband walked with me to the bus stop with two big golf umbrellas, and then took them both home after I boarded the bus.

The rain stopped just before the bus arrived (it's all about the timing).

Unfortunately, Rocket Rod was my driver this morning and he drove even more carelessly than usual in the wet conditions.

Luckily, just before we got to the road that scares me the most, a slow driver in a ute pulled out in front of us and Rocket Rod had to slow down (it's all about the timing).

I am not a religious person, but I prayed that we would arrive in The Bay safe and sound!

I think I have no choice but to lodge a complaint with the bus company about his driving.  To fear for my life once every week is not an option and dying in a bus crash is not on my 'to do' list in this lifetime!

The next bus driver, who took me to the pier, drove so slowly that I was sure I could have slow jogged faster than the bus was moving ... however that is more preferable than fearing for my life.

I arrived at the pier right on the turn of the tide (it's all about the timing), so the water was like glass and the dark clouds and blue sky was reflecting so beautifully in the water.


 


I got some lovely shots with my new wide angle lens, but also missed some great shots because I didn't take my 400 mm lens.

 
I missed the birds dive bombing into the glassy water catching their breakfasts.  Actually, I took some shots with my smaller lens, but they were very disappointing.

The heavens opened about five minutes after I arrived at Vegan Chickie's place (it'a all about the timing) and it didn't stop for the whole three hours that I was there.

Little Chicklet put on a good show for the camera today, little treasure that she is.

Balancing bubbles (it's all about the timing).
Blowing at the bubbles.
Be serious, just for a second.
Incy Wincy spider climbed up the water spout.
A giant burst of HAPPY!
I got to see her take a few steps and then dive at Vegan Chickie like she was a trampoline!

After my Chicklet 'fix', Adoring Husband picked me up in the downstairs carpark so that I wouldn't get wet in the rain and we drove to the supermarket.  The rain stopped as we pulled into that carpark (it's all about the timing).

We had lunch, did our grocery shopping and then drove home in more rain!

An afternoon of football and home made pizza made with a gluten free, organic base, topped the day off nicely.

It is still pouring with rain and it's way after midnight and I'm watching a movie that I want to see the end of, so I won't be in bed til 1.30am.

I hope it's still raining tomorrow morning, so that I won't feel guilty about sleeping in.

Let's hope the timing stays on my side.

Nite all.